Last week I was just not feeling in the mood for blogging or anything else for that matter. But, today I finally pushed myself up and out to get a bench monday shot for this week. You know how some days (or weeks) can be.
They leave you with nothing...
no eyes for inspiration
a no-care attitude
a mind racing in a million directions at once
feeling completely overwhelmed
and having a downright depressed mood
That has been me lately. All of the above. Yes, sad but true :(
I tend to go through these phases sometimes and this is one of them. Uggh. I don't know what else to do but make myself get up and get in motion. And, stop eating junk food because I'd be kidding myself if I said that hasn't become a haunting problem lately as well as the root cause for all the symptoms listed above :-/ I love the sweet stuff...too much...even when I know just how damaging the effects can be on my mind and body. Why is that?! As I type that out into words I'm thinking - wow...I must be crazy! Some things in this life will never make sense I guess.
Perhaps just putting this minute fraction of my feelings into words will spark something and make me snap out of it. I really want to get back on track and make myself feel better. I want to exercise and eat right and it is SO true that the hardest part is the beginning.
Now, my mind is saying.....where do you go from here?....are you crazy for bringing up something so personal?.....why would anyone care?......etc.
But, the real me is thinking that we've all been here before, in one way or another. Life is full of struggles and trying to figure out the best way to handle them. We're really all connected in more ways than we know. We're all looking for inspiration and motivation and a listening ear. We all have a reality that is uniquely our own.....and this is part of my reality.
So there, my quick bench monday post turned into an emotional dumping ground, but sometimes that will just have to do. Tomorrow is another day, you know :) And tomorrow marks the beginning of our new Self Portrait Challenge theme....shoes, so you may be seeing more of my feet than you bargained for! :-D
So, until tomorrow - I'll leave you with these words from John Mayer....(from his inspiring twitter post yesterday morning....
"There's always a moment on a trip when you decide you want to go home. Fight it. Because beyond that moment lies the best parts"